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[iheartmccoy]

one year, six months, a Leonard McCoy fanmix for jjverse  Big Bang

NOTES: this is a fanmix about McCoy and his divorce from his wife. Warnings are as followed: angst and totally indie! I hope you enjoy anyway... damien rice, cannonball There’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth There’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt It’s still a little hard to say what's going on There’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness There’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed You step a little closer each day That I can´t say what´s going on Stones taught me to fly Love, it taught me to lie Life, it taught me to die So it's not hard to fall When you float like a cannonball There’s still a little bit of your song in my ear There’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear You step a little closer to me So close that I can´t see what´s going on Stones taught me to fly Love taught me to lie Life taught me to die So its not hard to fall When you float like a cannon. Stones taught me to fly Love, it taught me to cry So come on courage, teach me to be shy 'Cause its not hard to fall, And I don't want to scare her Its not hard to fall And i don't want to lose Its not hard to grow When you know that you just don't know mumford&sons, white blank page Can you lie next to her And give her your heart, your heart As well as your body And can you lie next to her And confess your love, your love As well as your folly And can you kneel before the king And say I’m clean, I’m clean But tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart Oh tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage You did not think when you sent me to the brink, to the brink You desired my attention but denied my affections, my affections So tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart Oh tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart Aah, aah... Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole lie Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole lie Aah, aah... yellowcard, one year six months Sew this up with threads of reason and regret So I will not forget. I will not forget How this felt one year six months ago I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do Follow me there A beautiful somewhere A place that I can share with you I can tell that you don't know me anymore It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget And being on this road is anything but sure Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget I'm falling into memories of you,and things we used to do Follow me there A beautiful somewhere A place that I can share with you So many nights, legs tangled tight Wrap me up in a dream with you Close off these eyes, try not to cry All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you Memories of you Memories of you Memories of you I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do Follow me there A beautiful somewhere A place that we can share Falling into memories of you and things we used to do the airborne toxic event, sometime around midnight And it starts, sometime around midnight. Or at least that’s when you lose yourself for a minute or two. As you stand, under the bar lights. And the band plays some song about forgetting yourself for a while. And the piano's this melancholy soundtrack to her smile. And that white dress she’s wearing you haven’t seen her for a while. But you know, that she’s watching. She’s laughing, she’s turning. She’s holding her tonic like a cross*. The room’s suddenly spinning. She walks up and asks how you are. So you can smell her perfume. You can see her lying naked in your arms. And so there’s a change, in your emotions. And all these memories come rushing like feral waves to your mind. Of the curl of your bodies, like two perfect circles entwined. And you feel hopeless and homeless and lost in the haze of the wine. Then she leaves, with someone you don’t know. But she makes sure you saw her. She looks right at you and bolts. As she walks out the door, your blood boiling your stomach in ropes. Oh and when your friends say, “What is it? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.” Then you walk, under the streetlights. And you’re too drunk to notice, that everyone is staring at you. You just don’t care what you look like, the world is falling around you. You just have to see her. You just have to see her. You just have to see her. You just have to see her. You just have to see her. You know that she’ll break you in two. the cure, pictures of you I've been looking so long at these pictures of you That I almost believe that they're real I've been living so long with my pictures of you That I almost believe that the pictures are All I can feel Remembering You standing quiet in the rain As I ran to your heart to be near And we kissed as the sky fell in Holding you close How I always held close in your fear Remembering You running soft through the night You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow And screamed at the make-believe Screamed at the sky And you finally found all your courage To let it all go Remembering You fallen into my arms Crying for the death of your heart You were stone white So delicate Lost in the cold You were always so lost in the dark Remembering You how you used to be Slow drowned You were angels So much more than everything Hold for the last time then slip away quietly Open my eyes But i never see anything If only I'd thought of the right words I could have held on to your heart If only I'd thought of the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart All my pictures of you Looking so long at these pictures of you But i never hold on to your heart Looking so long for the words to be true But always just breaking apart My pictures of you There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to feel you deep in my heart There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to never feel the breaking apart All my pictures of you guster, backyard In the backyard In the garden You were always there Digging down where roots would burrow underneath Now the grass is always overgrown And the weeds are choking out the sun Pretty soon they'll come under the door And you don't care In the backyard Since last summer Almost nothing left Just some pieces of the roots that once dug in Now the grass is always overgrown And the weeds are choking out the sun Why do you still come home anymore When you don't care? sunset rubdown, us ones inbetween You are a waterfall Waiting inside a well You are a wrecking ball Before the building fell And every lightning rod Has got to watch the storm cloud come. And I’ve heard of pious men And I’ve heard of dirty fiends But you don’t often hear Of us ones in between And I’ve heard of creatures Who eat their babies; And I wonder if they stop To think about the taste. I saw the sun go down Outside of Arkansas; And I saw the sun come up Somewhere in Illinois. And in the darkness I taught myself to hate. But where were you, oh where were you? And where the fuck did the sun go? And I am a creature. And I am survivin’. And I want to be alone But I want your body. So when you eat me, Mother and baby, Oh baby, mother me, Before you eat me. And you should always pass When you get the inside lane. Don’t pull your hair out; I won’t pull my hair out. For I have never seen the sun That did not bury his fears in the side of the world. And the day is done. You are a waterfall Waiting inside a well You are a wrecking ball Before the building fell And I will mutter like a lover Who speaks in tongues, oh he speaks in tongues. Oh I speak in tongues. the weakerthans, left and leaving My city's still breathing (but barely it's true) through buildings gone missing like teeth. The sidewalks are watching me think about you, sparkled with broken glass. I'm back with scars to show. Back with the streets I know Will never take me anywhere but here. The stain in the carpet, this drink in my hand, the strangers whose faces I know. We meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say "I wanted it this way" Wait for the year to drown. Spring forward, fall back down. I'm trying not to wonder where you are. All this time lingers, undefined. Someone choose who's left and who's leaving. Memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me: a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest, the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires, new words for old desires, and every birthday card I threw away. I wait in 4/4 time, Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on will lead you home. snow patrol, you could be happy You could be happy and I won't know But you weren't happy the day I watched you go And all the things that I wished I had not said Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head Is it too late to remind you how we were But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur Most of what I remember makes me sure I should have stopped you from walking out the door You could be happy, I hope you are You made me happier than I'd been by far Somehow everything I own smells of you And for the tiniest moment it's all not true Do the things that you always wanted to Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do More than anything I want to see you, girl Take a glorious bite out of the whole world You could be happy and I won't know But you weren't happy the day I watched you go And all the things that I wished I had not said Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head Is it too late to remind you how we were But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur Most of what I remember makes me sure I should have stopped you from walking out the door You could be happy, I hope you are You made me happier than I'd been by far Somehow everything I own smells of you And for the tiniest moment it's all not true Do the things that you always wanted to Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do More than anything I want to see you, girl Take a glorious bite out of the whole world rem, everybody hurts When your day is long and the night, the night is yours alone, When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries n everybody hurts sometimes Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on) If you feel like letting go, (hold on) If you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on 'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long, When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on Well, everybody hurts sometimes, Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on Everybody hurts. You are not alone download here let me know if you need it reuploaded